It is really admirable to see the creative works people are engaging in lately; what other people are creating, or crediting, or sourcing from one another to make their own work! It is helpfully inspiring, and keeps one's spirits up when done so amiably <3
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Being ~3 months postpartum means being very exhausted, and very overwhelmed much of the time. Maternal suicide is still the leading cause of post natal death in mothers, there is a reason for that.
And so, at times like this, it is a good reminder to be grateful for supportive and compassionate networks. They make a difference. Not just to someone in my circumstance, but to anyone facing a hardship or difficult spot.
Be grateful for people who do what they can to support you and make you laugh, but also are willing to have hard conversations with you. The sort of conversations that make you think, and evaluate. These moments will, inevitably, lead to being a bit better, in many ways - so long as we are willing.
So, I'm pretty grateful. In depth or even in passing comments. It's just enough to get me outside, and buying gladiolus for the garden.
For anyone who is writing, or roleplaying engagements of motherhood and pregnancy, I have an article that may help. As with many aspects of representation, it is sometimes difficult to reach past the common narrative. I think this article addresses an unspoken attribute that is deeply important, and may help in understanding.
Just tryna help my nerds.
So, since people have taken my issue personally, and onto their own walls I'll explain a few things.
I pointed out an issue of art theft today, as best I could. I happen to be friends of a friend with the artist, and knew they had a strict No Repost policy. This artwork had also been photoshopped in a way that sent a very disturbing message on first look. Having never come across the image on Pinterest, or in a google image search - save quickly finding the original image and info - it looked fairly damning.
But that was not the largest reason a sore spot was hit for me. It was certainly a reason, I don't like art theft, but I have a large issue with representation. Now, some may say that this is a fantasy world, that these are fantasy races and ideas that hold no sway by the real world. However, the people who interact with these worlds and ideas are decidedly not imaginary. People are very real, and very much affected by representations.
I had known this for a long time, but I never truly thought about it until my final year of University. It was in a senior thesis class on 'Women and the Victorian Novel'. I had the pleasure of taking that class with a young woman I will call A.
A is a bright, charming, and sincere person. She made me think, had excellent thoughts, and was a wonderful listener. She is also mixed race. I never thought much on that quality, until we began discussing Jane Eyre, and Mr. Rochester's hidden wife. You see, dear reader, she is also mixed race. The root of her marriage to Rochester is justified by her white, British heritage by her father. Her insanity and bestial nature is blamed on the Otherness of her mother.
While the class was discussing something that I honestly cannot recall, A looked over to me and asked a simple question:
"How do you picture the characters you read about?"
At first, I just shrugged. Then, I realized what she was asking. It hit me quite hard. She followed up with:
"I only see one side of myself as accepted, the other side is just...this. Or weirdly sexed up."
She looked genuinely bothered by this. I realized, as well, that she was right. While, yes, there are exceptions, the common narrative was still there. It still informed how I read a novel, and how she read a novel.
We've talked on and off since then. Her words have always stayed with me. There is a quality of Otherness to certain racial depictions, fantasy or not. Often, not in malice, people meditate these depictions with eroticism, racial washing, or exoticism to make it more desirable. Because that has been how these racial depictions are commonly made desirable in common narrative.
No, people usually do not mean harm by this. It's usually misaligned intent. I have done this too, made the same mistakes. But I won't let it go, and sometimes I have a fury, because I saw the impact on someone I value.
Crimson; the hue that keeps you,
and yet you gave it all away.
Flecks on clothes, on liners, on sheets.
Unmade and discarded in sterile pans.
Or made to run in circles around you -
quick cuts covered in bandaids
sealed with a kiss.
I remember signing up for Inkarnate back when it first came out, and then promptly forgot about it. After seeing people using it in RP lately though, I decided to try it out again. It's much better, and pretty fun!
I am so very rusty though, but at least it's a good time <3
Do recommend for anyone wanting to make little, local maps <3
Everybody feels lonely sometimes. But only few of us are aware how important this feeling was for our ancestors - and that our modern world can turn it into something that really hurts us. Why do we feel this way and what can we do about it?
Bank account: Hey, didn't we just spend all the gold you saved on a new housing project?
Bank account: So, time to get saving again, right?
Bank: ... what is that?
Me: New, bigger housing project